Blaming is Easy - or is it?

I’ve had a rather heavy week in my own healing journey with regards to blaming my parents. It’s so easy to hold on to this blame towards them such as it’s their fault, they should of been better parents, it’s their fault I had this and that happen in my life. What I realise is that it’s easy to blame because it’s familiar to stay in that mindset. However, this keeps you stuck in an inner child victim state that just keeps going round. This loop then prevents you moving forward and if your holding anger then you keep repeating the same thoughts and emotions never moving past. It’s away of suffering which is a choice and this choice is because sometimes it’s easier to keep blaming our parents instead of taking responsibility for our own life and let go and forgive them.

I myself was holding on to anger towards my mother and I kept going around and around in this cycle where I was so angry at her and that it was all her fault. The more I sat with these emotions the more I started to ask the questions. The right questions. Should as why am I so angry? How do I get past this feeling and thoughts? Where is this coming from?

My heart took me back to various times in my life where my mum has emotional rejected me and the pain was so strong that I had been covering up this pain with anger. The projected anger was saying ‘how could she do this too me’ and ‘it’s not fair’. All associated from my child mind where I held on to this anger out of my own protection from really feeling this deep pain. This anger was suppressed and protected me from feeling but it also caused a lot of dissociation between my mind and my heart. Each loop kept building and building with my mind reinforcing this notion that my mother didn’t want me and that I was to blame.

The more I went deeper into this. The more I could feel I was also holding on to blame towards myself. I had given myself a believe that I wasn’t good enough to be loved and that it was my fault and that I should of been better. This was the emotional pain I was holding onto and it was easier in my minds protection to stay angry instead of face it head on.

However, the more I became away of what was really behind it the more I would allow myself to fully feel this pain. The more I felt the pain. The more my connection with self was repairing.

At present Im still healing from this but I know I’m now on the right path as I feel lighter in my body. I’m starting to feel free! This feeling is what we all deserve, we are all worthy of love and it’s ok to ask for help.

So the question I ask myself now is this notion of blaming is easy is actually damaging to my health, my body and my emotional body because when you suppress your emotions you suppress your immune system and this over time can create disease in your body.

If you would like another perspective on your own emotional journey I’m here to support if you would like. I offer 1-2-1 sessions over zoom where your in a safe space to express these emotions. You can book via the website. Book a 1-2-1 | TransformingEnergies

I also provide exercises to help tap into your heart on Patreon and if you want to learn more about consciousness then I have a number of videos on various topics on there. We go deep and really woo if you’d like to join in.

Have a lovely day 🥰